Thursday, March 15, 2012

The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn.  ~David Russell

Kate Voegele says in a song, "I'd rather make sandcastles instead of these wide world decisions . . ." Everyone finds in life that as you get older, you find yourself wishing you were a kid again, the simple life, nap times and all the gummie bears you want. As you grow older you seem to be making more decisions quicker and quicker, that's what growing up is. But with all the decisions that you keep making you begin to look back and question them. At the time it seemed like you were making the right decision, it was exactly what you needed to do but in the end, couldn't you have found a better path. This quote makes me think about all the decisions I have made in life, or even just in the past year. The things I have done and the bridges I have crossed and burned to get there. Looking back is it all worth it? All the friends you lost or gained? The place your at now? Its hard to learn to trust yourself and the decisions you made, especially when your living in the fallout. The decisions I made I know were the right ones, if I hadn't made them I could be happier today, but it would be a lie. I would be biting my tongue to deal with friends who are not real friends, people who could throw me under the bus in a second. But I can't help but thinking that it would be easier now if I had not made that hard decision to do what I did in the beginning.
In the end, you can't turn back and in the long run you realize that those friends that seemed so close to you, looked to you in a crisis, in their time of need. They no longer need you, and you are no longer affected by that fact that they are not apart of your life. The bridges you burn with people turn into some miniscule memory that fades into your background and you realize that even though they were this huge part of your life at that moment, you never really cared much for them anyway. The fact that you hardly realize they are out of your lives is atonement that they never really belonged there, and the hard decision you made to put them in your past was the right one.
The hardest decision to make in life is which bridges to cross and which bridges to burn, but in the long run the burned bridge fades if it was the right decision and the crossed bridge brings you to the realization that
 you knew all along what the right decision was.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

No Regrets

Hello World,
My name is Carrie Grace, I wanted to start a blog about my personal thoughts but not to describe every detail of my life. I wanted to tell you about myself, the person I see when I look in the mirror. So the best way I can think to do it, is to tell you how I'm feeling in my life and use my personal experience to describe different quotes that I appreciate. I look for quotes to explain my life, but I can never find just one to sum up the whole thing. 
My hopes for this blog is that I can open up and explain the way I feel without holding back. It seems that, in life, when you want to say something, good or bad, your conscious tells you to stop and think. Everyone knows the feeling, everyone does it. But some people let their conscious rule over what they want to say. They over think it and decide to bite their tongue. I am one of those over thinkers and most of the time I am glad I hold back because I would regret the things that I was going to say. But other times I feel like my overactive brain becomes a hindrance to me. I stop short of sharing my feelings and telling the people I care about how I really feel. I found this quote and agree with it, the little things I do regret I wanted to do at the time, and although it left me with a bad feeling I grew from the experiences and was eventually glad I got to experience them. 
So my goal for this post is to learn to let go a little more. I want a little regret in my life, not to make me feel bad, but to make me realize that I have lived. I envy people with a lot of regrets, because they get to live through them. But even though they regret the experience, they can always make it right. If you never regret, you never have a chance to grow from your mistakes, to learn to let go, to  
learn to live.


 Nothing lasts forever, so live your life, take chances and never have regrets because at one point everything you did was exactly what you wanted to do.